NO LIFE

today is sunday night...so kelian mi sitting at home blogging away...Life can be better den dat right? this weekend did nothing except slp and slp...dunno y so tired..slping is such a hobby for mi now...oni except sat i went to swim myself..got a tan again...look so dark now...i admire korean gals for their whiteness...other den dat...i look at my life and i say "PATHETIC"...dunno wat is wrong wif mi..nothing is lacking..but my life is ssooooooooo boring...not mentioning e coming holidays i juz be slacking at home or going out...but wont be doing anytink exciting...haiz...besides that i shall end my brief update...-_-

scary nightmare..

ys nite i had a super scary nitemare..i dreamt someone was chasing mi...i don rem e whole dream but i guess whereever i go e person would loom and appear in my face...scary....mi today also veri tired..i guess recently i haf been an unreasonable gal rite? haiz..so sian...maybe i should not be so greedy ba...wan e best of everything...life cannot be like dat de ba..i suppose...no one understand my feelings..i guess i juz haf to write it down...maybe reading it will sound different from when i say it out..blog...i feel utterly break down le..my body cant withstand all the pressure from dat happened recently...its getting so hard to put up a gd performance infront of everybody...sometimes i wish i could juz cry and get over it...seems easy but i tink wo ban bu dao...so fan...arrrrghhh..i wish ipp was over soon...one less burden to worry about...

o_0~~~~~

monday again....2 more weeks i be free...ha...ys went out wif hm....ben lai juz want to return my books den go home slack wan...but min also wan return books...so went together lor..go woollands de...haiz waited one hour for her...(typical!)..den we ate mac for lunch...e mac wings meal...paisei leh...overturned my Coke...e poor mac staff had to clean it up...m i clumsy or wat de..i decided dat i hate myself le...ha...den gd old min shared her lemon tea wif mi..oohh..i was feeling so grateful ba...after dat actually wanted to c Wimbledon but there was onli one time slot...6 plus..so sian...so we went sun plaza lor..hoping got nice show to watch..but den realli fed up lor..coz all like so lousy de...2046...i m not going to watch dat!!!...in the end we watched Ouija Board...ya u heard it..korean horror movie..i don tink its horror lar..not veri scary either...maybe i m numb to all horror movies liao..and nx time i m certainly not giong to watch ani korean horror movies..aniway e theater onli had 6 pple..so it was damn cold..and certainly added to the atmostphere..i guess this movie is onli gd for pple who adore korea things and they haf a whole free afternoon to spare...of coz they muz be rich too...or realli don go watch tis flick = waste of money...haha.....

bad weather...

so sianzz..today weather veri bad...as in ...it makes my mood go booo....haiz..meant to go swimming de lor...haiz..but nvm lar...mi went out wif xiangqi today...haha..long time nv c her leh...thanx for ur birthday present wor...wahahaha...i promise i will use it one day de...kekeke....aniway mi and xiangqi went to find her shoes...wa...from taka to far east ...all e way wifout success..haiz..den hao bu rong yi find one dat mi and she also beri like much one de..but no size leh...onli left size 4 or 6..which i tink size 4 i surely can fit in..but its not wat i want lar..wahaha...so we went away wif a gloomy heart..den xiangqi got headache today..dunno y also..so mi suggest go eat long john coz mi haven had lunch ma...den xiangqi can also rest...keke....ate combo one..coz cheap mah...den dunno y i like e chicken veri much..although pple may say combo one not hua lor..and most pple prefer fish...hmmm...after dat continue our 'quest' for e shoes..wahha...duno y mi todae so tired...walk until i realli buay tahan le...den stop at this fashion ...where xiangqi bought her formal pants...hahaha..after dat was juz a blur lor..a march down to hmv...where it was e finishing point..mi and xiangqi juz collapsed out of exhaustion...ha....it was 6 sometink when i reached yishun....den went to walk ard abit..(don ask mi y)...bought my japanese shampoo..(i tink it can do wonders for my hair)..e shop assistant was damn friendly..hahaha...but i alreadi wanted to buy liao so its not she who changed my decision ba..after dat den went home le...lie on e sofa until now..haha..slack day...but quite happy lar...hehee...^^*

siAnZzZ..

today is yet another day at PSA...ah...so boring....mi sitting in one corner rite now waiting for time to pass...coz i changed my place..i tink its onli temporily....but so sian leh...coz here i can onli tok to myself...but i din..coz i m not a psycho...haiz...time pass so quickly onli 2 weeks + to my end of attachment..i don plan to work in the holidays..coz i wan to pamper myself..i don wan to work blindly and sacrifice alot...ever since last dec i don haf a proper holiday..and last dec i was working in motorola!!!...zZz..tis coming holidays i wan to do alot of sports..whip myself into shape and of coz upgrade myself...do more shopping..(on a reasonable rate)..but i also wan to save alot of money...catch up wif my frens..i tink bcoz lack of time..i been neglacting some of my frens..maybe after the one month ++ holidays i will becum a better person and wait for sch to re-open..i guess my last sch semester is pretty precious..now i had an idea of how my working life will be like in the future...haha..now feeling veri hungry...when will lunch cum soon...i hope everything will get better..coz i gonna make my life more interesting den regretting...shall stop here...will update again..

I M VERI TIRED~!!! :(

sometimes i tink i m juz torturing myself..i haf a perfectly gd weekend...not veri wasted but i m veri veri veri tired...haiz...ys went swimming wif cuiling in the morning(9 plus)...so shiok sia...mi learn to love swimming le..maybe i wan to go again nx week...hee hee...den we ate lunch at long john...got a secret here..dunno y ys felt veri full so i din eat e corn dat came wif the meal...mi juz threw e corn into cuiling empty drink..lol...den we juz smuggle it out of long john..don wish to let pple c my 'chou shi'...haha...after dat cuiling went to work...mi stayed at northpt and loithered ard lor..look at CDs and stuff...after dat ard 2pm...took e train to orchard and found a corner to nap..coz i noe matthew they all sure late wan...ya lor i was right..funny e three of them reached together but din c each other...so we went to haagen diaz to haf our ice-cream...ha...got pretty waitress there sia...i order 2 scoops of choco and strawberry ice-cream wif choco chips and rainbow sprinkles..hmm...at first i tot this combination was great..but it really wasnt'...more like a kiddy ice-cream..yawn..after eat ice-cream..we went kbox to sing lor...yanting don wan de..but we drag her along...i tink yanting had 'yu gang' dat she going to suffer there...haha..dat y she don wan...keke...but yanting refused to sing leh...although we tried all means to persuade her...mi ah...i sing my regular songs...got f.i.r., cyndi, fish leong, s.h.e., elva ba...e.t.c...haha...yanting present was a mashi maro lor...a huge one wearing a red hat...ha...halfway thru ktv den we went mad le lor..everyone of us went mad ba...but quite fun lor...onli until ending of ktv it was quieter..coz some of us were veri tired...(mi lor!)...i tink i din haf a gd slp these 2 days...it was insufficient ...now my head feel like it is floating le...den body also no energy liao...countdown to end of ipp(15 days = 3 more weeks!!)..^^*

another movie...COOL GUY~~!!!

yO..back here to update again..mi went to watch another movie todae wif yun and min...haha..it was a super early movie(12.15pm) @ cathay woodlands...tis movie is Cool Guy...so rare tis movie...onli had one session in woodlands and two in orchard wan...haha...tis movie is acted by song cheng xian...is korean...not dat i don like korean..i'm starting to like it ba..coz in the past i onli liked jap culture...wow korean gals all so white..mi start to xian mu liao...haha...

tis movie takes place in a school..korean guy had e image of a gangster meets korean gal from another sch...both kan bu shun yan each other in the first place...so one day guy decided wif his little gang of friends waited outside the gal's sch...gal and her fren(aso quite pretty lar..) decided to escape by e back gate...when e gal finally mustered enough courage to jump over e wall..she fell on top of the guy sia..so they kissed lor..(e most jing dian scene of the show..)lol..guy say he nv been touched by any gal b4...(i tink he dat time already liked e gal..so it was an escuse)..after dat..everday guy threathen gal to go out wif him...call him..if not gal will be sorry..it was so ironic..but yet same time so sweet..its veri schoolish..their love is a sweetish type of way yet everybody would wan it lor...ending u muz watch urself...i tink after watching it..every gal would wan to be in the actress shoes lor..coz so swang sia..lol...e gal is pretty in a sch-gal type of way ba...tis romantic comedy is veri ke ai lor...i guess i wanted to cry during e movie..but i wanted to be a stronger gal..so i held my tears..but near the ending part of the movie..i still cried abit lar...can say its a quite worth movie ba..at least i tink i din waste my $8.50..feel like watching wimbledon..like not bad hor..

recently i keep bottling up my feelings...in the past i used to tok to pple wan..but now i find dat pple whom i can realli tok to r getting lesser ba...and i start to tink of the future more den ever le..i noe i shld concentrate on e present..but somehow feel e future ahead is veri lost..dunno y recently i aso lost interest in e many things i do...i don get dat excited feeling whenever events happen..so i also trying hard to find back tis feeling...life is too short to miss anytink but yet i cant seem to move myself..haiz..i tink i also duno wat i toking le...maybe i update again tml..tee hee...^^*

NeOpEt TiMe~~

hey...i noe it sounds silly...but mi & and my fren has been addicted to NeoPets during our attachment now...wats e cause of it? --> boring old attachment..has us locked up here for 10 hours everyday..sick leh..den NeoPets has so many games to play...i haven earn so much money b4 in real life..and i'm trying to concentrate on building a house for my neopet now(StarrieGal)...hahaha...all e staff at PSA are so busy...cant find them at all...hai..my stomach is grumbling again...oh if u happen to play neopets too...add mi as a neofriend k...my account is bluestargal11..thanx..^^*

FuN wEeKenD ...

its e weekend again..haha...but this weekend seemed super fast wor...and its realli realli veri fun as compared to last weekend...yeeks...-_-...ys i went out wif min and yun..(haha..i tink u2 wont be reading lar..don mind if i juz post ur names here...keke..)...long time nv c min sia..her hair becum short le wor..u r realli e fashion queen among us sia...:)...super cute wor(despite e mushroom look-alike..tee-hee)...

hmmm..tis outing we watched White Chicks..haha...i realli wanted to watch this flick for a long time..but din seem to match my schedules against u all sisters..haiz..aniway...watched at cineleisure...haiz..had to sit 3rd row...so sad..but beats sitting first row..i really sympathize wif those..oh yea...b4 dat, mi and my frens went taka basement buy ice-cream...as e ice-cream like veri special...$3 one cup...den hor..can choose 2 flavours of ice-cream..mi and mi frens decided to chose fruit wan coz more special...rather den choco all the time(though its my fav..)...we chose strawberry and lemon..hahaha..super sweet leh...realli buay tahan sia...eat finish juz make us feel more thirstier den ever..keke...

aniway e movie realli veri funni lor..as everybody seemed to enjoy it...mi and my frens laugh non-stop..like siao liao sia..i tink it been ages since we 3 laugh together so much..kinda miss this feeling...keke...so we 3 muz go out more often...i tink maybe if my attachment over liao easier lar hor...

nx sat i tink we 3 go watch the cute guy or wat movie title lor...the one got korean star song chen xian act..izit huh..i not veri sure...so cutie dat movie...hahaa...aiya..pple reading tis don 3 lines down lar..we r oni 19..somemore yun haven turn 19 yet..we still got e right to watch these movies and sometimes act abit cute can anot..hahahaha...will update again tml..hahaha...

P.S: jh, if u reading tis now..i hope u getting well soon...jiayou wor...miss ya~~^^*

now feeling veri terrible...actually its nothing much...but i tink i m falling sick....Listening to F.I.R's wo men de ai....now veri feverish...suffering from cold...my eyes r bloody red...i hate this world...i feel so xinku..juz let mi die...yi liao bai liao...stomach feeling veri empty...somewhere inside mi aches..although i m veri brave and can listen to reality and e truth...but a part of mi cant let go...feel like taking mc..maybe try to chen until after work ba...6.30...

spongebob? can i noe who u r??

sometimes...when i look out e sky..and i see the grey clouds hovering....i smell the smell of rain...i would become sad...i guess rain brings mi sadness ya..haha...i also wonder why...maybe bcoz when its raining..every thing becomes so cold...if i ask u all pple out there reading my blog..wat would u do when u r sad...what would u do to forget ur sadness? i guess no matter wat i choose to do..e pain will always be there ba...now i juz wan to escape reality...hide in my little wonderful world...where there is onli laughter and joy...Love brings mi too much pain and sadness...it turned my world into a complete dark hell..everyday is juz passing wifout mi noeing it..i tink i m juz wasting everyday.....there is still a small part of mi reaching out for hope...its the part pple c mi as...as a realli hard working gal trying her best at her attachment right now? i guess e onli way to stop myself from thinking is to keep working ba...and i can't bear to hurt those close to mi..so i rather not tok abt it..i rather laugh it off...lucky i still haf a blog here to confide in..there is a fear in mi...dat i dunno y...a mental fear of being hurt again ba...but as long as i still can maintain my cheerfulness in front of pple...wat the heck?? juz go on wif it...and dats bcoz i noe some of u guys still care and love mi...so i don wish to leave u all too....